Today hasn’t been completely smooth, and I am having to work to keep from being over taken by melancholy. The morning started out ok – but by 10:30 I was already feeling tired and nervous. I think it has to do with where I am physically, but also Shirley called me up to give me details about the prizes for team healthy. She told me that she would have my check waiting at the office, but that they would mail Mike’s check to him. she had left a voice mail yesterday asking for his address – so I asked if she had his address. She said yes. I knew they must have communicated, and it prompted me to check up on him. He has a soccer game tonight, and he wishes he were in Moab. It left me feeling gut wrenched for some of the day. I am so much better off not knowing anything that he is doing right now. I really need to stop checking up on him. It doesn’t do me any good.
The first part of the morning seemed like a time warp. Every time I looked at the clock it felt like an hour had already passed when actually only 5 minutes had passed. I listened to the New York Times. Most of the news seemed to be about the killing of Osama Bin Laden. One of the stories says that he was buried at sea. Really? It seems so surreal. Who buried him at sea? Did the US? Or his family? I really thought once we had the body – we wouldn’t give it up for anything. It wouldn’t have surprised me if we would have cryopreserved him.
Interesting – there was a dog involved in the raid on his compound. I thought that was pretty awesome. I found no detailed information – but will be keeping my eye out for it. I think that is just incredible!
When they had announced his death on sunday night, and said that it was verified by DNA tests, I asked right away how did we have samples of his DNA to test with? Apparently the DNA was tested against the samples of other family members. Today the New York times also said that one of his wives identified the body. I don’t think the whole thing went down as I imagine. Also, I am just a tad bit sceptical about our government’s ability to tell the truth anyway. Osama’s death is very symbolic, and would be nothing but a morale boost for our country. If at some point it comes out that his death was faked – I wouldn’t be surprised. It kinda sucks when you don’t trust your leaders!
I got some great news today: I have been elected to serve on classified staff council. Hopefully Helen will allow me to serve (actually – I think that would be the straw that breaks the camel’s back if she says no.) We’ll see. I think she will be back on Thursday.
Calvin spent most of the morning in my office – which was really a nice distraction. He is really funny – and he puts a smile on my face. I let him take me out to lunch today. The one thing that I really hate about him is his incessant talk about sex. When he starts, I change the subject, or lately I have been telling him straight out that I really don’t want to talk about it. He seems to be obsessed with Annette right now – which I think is totally hysterical. But as long as he is not hitting on me – that is a relief. Today I told him clearly that I would never hook up with him. I’m not interested in that. But as long as he wants tos be friends – I am down with that. He is supposed to spend a full day with me so he can teach me how to cook an authentic southern meal: ribs, black-eyed peas, collard greens, rice, brown gravy ham hocks, and red velvet cake with white frosting. I would love to try my hand at southern food – I have never cooked it.
Our talk about southern food reminded me of the restaurant that Gregg and I went to get breakfast while we were in DC (or maybe Maryland.) Memories are such a double-edged sword. I guess it is somewhat painful to have memories when a relationship first ends, but as time passes – they are somewhat of a comfort.
Calvin said something noteworthy today. “You miss opportunities when you put up a wall.” I must admit – I have to agree with him. I definitely know the more willing one is to be involved with people – the more opportunities there are to share, give, grow. But it also leaves one open for being hurt. I don’t know which tips the scale.
Today I decided that Mike Posneris a mix between Tony and Kevin. Tony does not agree, I believe that Kevin does.
And… I have a new favorite dance song: Party Rock Anthem by LMFAO. Enjoy!
What an exciting month November is turning out to be! Of course, this is 
